i am so tired

hello everyone who bothers to read this.

on january 1st i will be “re-launching” this site as it is- and will be; my business. my livelihood. everything i have learned and taught myself my whole life has essentially been leading up to this very moment. i love learning. and it’s hard to take a step aside and not learn something new to create an essential formation. but i have been working so, so hard, so many late nights and yesterday evenings coffee in the afternoon. so many outbursts, failures, tears and celebrations. Countless hours of stress, back and forth, last minute craft store runs, delays, impostor syndrome, drawing, resizing, reading, more impostor syndrome, and learning. I have finally taken it upon myself to officiate this website. It will start small as all things do, but i know i will fill this with everything i am, create and become. i cannot help but learn. my head will explode one day once i run out of capacity when i reach for a new skill. but i would still learn to adapt.

everything about what i want to be i have put into this, myself, and my home the past 2 years. i have a clean slate, fewer friends, more resources and so much knowledge i actually cry when i think of how amazing everything is i want to show you.

i am slow, i am healing, i am learning

And as for this year of support. I literally wouldn’t think I could do it like this without viewers like you, thank you.